The Story Behind 'Only Little'

This song was one of those songs, that quite literally rolled out of me... 20 minutes sat at my piano and 'Only Little' was created. Years of feelings were shared in the song.

'Only Little' is about reflecting on being a little girl, full of wonder, hope and dreams. How I wish I could go back to being the girl, with the sparkly blue guitar who genuinely believed she'd be besties with Biebs and on tour with Adele by the age of 15! - not quite my reality, but it's good to be a dreamer!!

doing a concert to my parents in the garden lol

If i'm totally honest, on my journey, I have recieved a lot of negativity... friends that don't support, that would simply rather see you fail... teachers that instead of inspiring, want to brainwash you with doubt. Fellow musicians, that judge and make me feel an outsider. It's hard.

I often wonder to myself, why? I blame myself for other peoples odd ways. Is it because i'm 'too bubbly', maybe i'm not that good? i'm not a 'cool' musician, maybe i'm delusional ...

Then I think about little Yazzy. The little Yazzy who aged 3 stood on the table in a busy restaurant & started to sing... the little Yazzy that begged for a guitar for Christmas... the little Yazzy that would sit on her bed (with pink High School Musical bedsheets) writing song after song after song, with not one single doubt.. I thought I was awesome! when did that feeling stop?

Then I realised it was other people... I was letting other peoples opinions of me, define my own!

'Adults they are scary, they crush all of your hope, bring you down to earth and sink your sailing boat', is the first line of the chorus and one of the most powerful in the song for me. Quite literally describing so many older figures that have been in my life. Maybe it's that old lady at my gig, who called me 'depressing' or my music teacher who told me to 'give up the singing and be realistic' ... and i follow with the lines 'just let me be', because that is how I feel.

In my life, I try to pour love onto other people... and I'm drawn to people who do the same, now at the age of 26 I truly do not have time for being who are just draining. Like my friend Sharon says, 'Radiators, not drains!' ... if you can't be kind or just be nice, then please take the first exit!

If you're reading this and you are doubting yourself and your dreams.. stop right now! Think about little you.. and do it for them!

"I speak to my younger self like I would a child—softly, slowly, reminding her she was always enough."

little Yazzy